You can’t go back thirty years and look at that awful stuff. It will be too painful for you.
Actually, I can.
OK then, if you do, you won’t be able to handle it. It will be painful.
Actually, I will… and it is.
Then you can’t tell anyone. It will be too embarrassing for you.
Actually, I can, and it is.
Well, if you do tell someone, just tell your close friends. No one wants to hear that kind of stuff.
Actually, I can, and you’re right…they don’t.
OK, well… you definitely can’t tell your family. It will be too embarrassing for them. They won’t be able to handle it.
Actually, I can, and you’re right. It was, and they can’t.
But, you might lose them. You need them.
Actually, I did. Turns out, I don’t. But, I miss them…
This post was written in response to Linda G. Hill’s Stream of Social Consciousness Saturday
The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS Oct. 20/18
<3 such strength! Thanks for sharing
Thank you💕
Yes we can! Family, well I have some now but not what I was supposed to have via DNA. I moved across the ocean and finally found the place I belong. Your courage in sharing will help those who have not yet realized that they too are survivors and not merely victims. Bravo!
Thank you for following one of my blogs. Léa
Amazing the expectations that come along with DNA. So hard to shed, aren’t they? I’m glad you were able to find a place in which you feel you belong. At the heart of it all, you belong everywhere. You know this…
Powerful truth from a woman who is more than a survivor. You are thriving! I’m sorry you miss your family. But you are true to yourself, and you are deeply loved. Sending peace and warm hugs to you.
I think sometimes I really am thriving. But I think maybe thriving takes a lot of energy, so I have to rest. And I haven’t figured out just yet how to thrive when I’m resting…not YET!
You will! Rest is good.
I know what you are talking about. I have not yet had the courage to tell my mother or brother the full truth as neither wants to discuss with me. Your poem resonated with me and I have tears in my eyes.
I’m sorry. Mine did not want to hear the truth either. When they did, they didn’t want to hear about it again. They aren’t wired to know what to do with that heavy load. My advice: do a LOT of self-care/work before you decide to tell. Sometimes, telling changes everything, and once that happens, you have little control over anything but yourself. Big hugs to you💕
True courage Jami!
courage definition: 1. the ability to control your fear in a dangerous or difficult situation: 2. to be brave and confident enough to do what you believe in: 3. the ability to control fear and to be willing to deal with something that is dangerous, difficult, or unpleasant: .
Courage comes from the heart and you have a good one! That’s also why you miss them. Hugs!
My latest clothing purchase is a shirt that reads “Brave is the new beautiful”
But strangers will understand and relate. Sometimes it takes those not involved to bring you peace over the past. But through the grace of God, we all can…
The grace of God is what it boils down to every single time, isn’t it?
Good on you for staying strong! Thanks for sharing, and also for the follow on I Write Her! I appreciate it. Hope you enjoy future posts. 🙂
Thank you, Susi! Looking forward to them😊