published writing Archives - My journey to a butterfly

Oh boy, I haven’t been the best blogger lately, eh? Well, I have an excellent excuse: I had a 6 hour surgery 3 weeks ago. Stage 4 endometriosis excision surgery. They removed 2 tumors from my colon, and endo implants from my bilateral pelvic brims, bilateral pelvic and abdominal walls, bladder, ureters, liver and diaphragm…along with removing my Fallopian tubes. Yeah, it’s been quite the 3 weeks around here. I feel like shit, but less shitty than when I first got home. Your diaphragm is a muscle, so breathing was pretty painful the first 2 weeks. I imagine this might be what it feels like to be run over by a van. Just guessing.

I’m also taking 9 credits online at UMASS Boston. I know. I’m crazy. I’m way behind, but they are working with me, thank God. Today, I came down with a sore throat, headache and chills. Yay.

Tired of hearing me moan and groan? I am.

A great thing that happened this month, and also a funny thing, is that I got published again. What’s funny about it is that I have been so damn sick, I forgot all about it! I remembered TWO weeks after it came out! Ha! It’s in the American Journal of Nursing. If you’re interested, click here.

I’m hoping to feel better enough tomorrow to start catching up on my homework, but I have a feeling I’ll be plopped on the couch. Sometimes, you just gotta roll with the punches and let go of what you can’t control…something I’m working on in many areas of my life.

This post was written in response to Linda G Hill’s Stream of Social Consciousness Saturday

The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS Oct. 19/19

Well, I finally received the print copy of my article. I started this whole “getting something published” journey back in the spring, and it’s kind of like waiting for a baby to be born. No, not really. Bad example. It’s more like waiting for a vacation you planned well in advance. Yes, that’s a better comparison. You plan the trip, and once you book it, you’re PUMPED. You tell everyone you know about it, you are so freaking excited to go there, and then you kind of have a let down, as you realize you have to spend the next several months just living your ordinary life until the day rolls around. Kind of like the trip I just took to San Diego. I bought it LAST November on cyber Monday (BEST day to purchase online trips, FYI….$600 for round trip airfare and 4 nights in a hotel ON the ocean). We were so excited when we bought it, then had to face the reality of a New England winter and spring (basically just one long cold shitty season), go through the summer and then get excited again as the date finally neared. We just went last week, and it was amazing. And the day I returned home, the paper copy of the American Journal of Nursing was waiting for me. Perfect homecoming after a perfect vacation.

And, I read a book on attachment relationship types on the plane, and it allowed me to let go of the angst which had been building up inside me regarding yet another failed relationship. Sometimes, just having the answer to “why” is good enough.

Well, I am happy again…finally. Feeling at peace and ready to conquer the world again. Thank God….