I’m one of those people who goes on vacation and doesn’t unpack their suitcase until the next trip. Or, until something essential is needed from the bag. I still haven’t unpacked two of my beach bags from last summer. At this point, we are getting close enough to the next summer, so why bother? Is it laziness? Maybe. Or maybe it’s efficiency. Maybe I’m just prioritizing. Some unpacking is more important than others. Like unpacking parts of my life that don’t belong with me anymore.
Have you ever unpacked your soul? I have. I didn’t realize how much baggage a person could hold on to throughout a lifetime, until I started unpacking. Emotions, resentments, unhealed childhood wounds, negative thought patterns, toxic relationships (friends OR family who just can’t seem to lift you up)…the list goes on and on. The soul is a hell of a big suitcase.
Unpacking your soul isn’t for the weak. You are so accustomed to the weight of it all, the heaviness becomes normalized. It’s difficult to let go, even when you can clearly see that what you’re holding on to, isn’t yours to hold. Prying your fingers open after a lifetime of gripping is painful, like they are breaking, so most of us change our minds and keep holding on, because carrying the weight around is a familiar pain that we are used to. Who wants to feel like they are breaking, just to let something go? Trust me…YOU do! I’ll tell ya… once you make the break, the lightness of it all is heavenly. Heavenly.
I’ve been writing in this blog for over three years now. Processing. Growing. Healing. Taking two steps forward, one step back. Sometimes, a dozen steps back. Or sideways. I’ve been working out my “stuff” in here. Trying to figure it out. Trying to rewire. Trying to learn how to let go, let be. Sometimes, just trying without knowing what I was trying for, but doing it anyway. Sometimes, giving up. But always starting again.
I haven’t “had” to write in here too much lately. Do you know why? Because, I did it.
I figured it out.
The lightness of it all is most definitely heavenly. I’ve unpacked almost all of it. I’m not sure we are ever truly “done” with the unpacking… the healing. I don’t even think that’s the end goal, after all. I think our purpose for being here is to understand that the goal is to simply be aware enough to know what needs unpacking. Then, being brave enough to try.
I’ve unpacked a lot, and even though I’m not completely empty of it all, I’ve unpacked “enough.” Enough to allow peace into my life. To allow happiness into my life. To allow LOVE into my life. This is more than enough. My soul is smiling now. I am light.
Do you feel heavy, in places? Is your soul smiling? What do YOU need to unpack?
This post was written in response to Linda G Hill’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday. It’s funny, because I just recently realized I’ve been calling it Stream of “Social” Consciousness Saturday for years now. I suppose that’s fitting for most of what I write.
You are so right about this! “The soul is a hell of a big suitcase.” I’ve been unpacking for years and am amazed that my soul holds so much…
Kudos to you!! I’m thrilled for you.
Three years ago I was in a really good place when my game of life decided to seriously level up and Kundalini energy flew open full-bore. Since then my suitcase got huge and things down in the basement of the basement of my suitcase are being brought up and unpacked, like it or not. As much as the process itself has been a bit of a living hell (no exaggeration), the inner changes have been staggering. One day about a year and a half ago something deep down inside shifted and I no longer wanted what I never had in the way of a “big brother.” And this past summer I began to take steps to disentangle from him (we co-own 2 inherited properties with other family). The thing is, he’s so unbelievably stupid, and his wife is so controlling that he’s fighting me on it right now. Hopefully this won’t go on for too many more months because if I really wanted to become vindictive I could ruin his life, when all I want is to be free from him. I’m hoping that once I’m free from him, things about my awakening will shift for the better in a big way. This relationship is a carry over from a previous lifetime, and healing from it is huge.
This line hit home: “The soul is a hell of a big suitcase.”
To unpack it can be a tiresome, lengthy process.
Negative events appear to overshadow all the good memories.
I don’t think I realized until recently I’d been nearing emptying mine.
Surreal!
Great post! 🙂
How wonderful to be at this place you are now!! Woo Hoo 🙂
My mind is buzzing with comments. That’s because what you’ve written here is so insightful and accurate. “Unpacking your soul isn’t for the weak.” But even the strong might need to take it one piece at a time. And I agree that we’re never really done, because layers can get added. Cleaning out my parents’ house took two years of intense unpacking and processing. Whew. But we if we keep at it, we make progress, lighten the load, and free our souls to fly. And we learn how to not add more baggage or take on the baggage of others. Thank you for this affirming post!
While reading your words, it slowly starts feeling different world, unusual as many people are accostomed living in comfort. isn’t that that you are not, but the sheer weight of knowledge, experience and understanding that you have started carrying and over all how it is coming out in your expressions carries all of us, and i may only talk about me. May be i’ll read and would like to read a lot more from you dear butterfly 🙂 strength to you.